My Answered Prayer
In September of 1996 our family grew from five members to six when we had our fourth child. Born with Patau Syndrome, Benjamin was our little angel here on earth for only eight days. Not nearly long enough for us, but long enough for our family to hold him, sing to him, and love him with every fabric of our being. Benjamin was not meant to be our angel on earth, but our angel in heaven.
Shortly after Benjamin's passing, I was attending an evening retreat, “Journey from the Head to the Heart”. I could not tell you what the topic was because my mind and prayer were focused on my little baby. We knew Benjamin was born blind and his brain underdeveloped, but we didn't know if he could hear or not.
My prayer that evening was that Benjamin had heard us tell him that we loved him, and heard the sweet songs of love we whispered into his tiny ears every day of his life. I just wanted to know if he had heard and been comforted by our voices. As I sat praying with all my heart, I asked God to send me some little sign that would reassure me of this.
Within a minute or so, I had this pain in my left ear which I simply thought was nothing and I just pulled on it slightly to relieve it. There was a sharpness to the pain which continued to escalate, all within a few short minutes, to a level that I thought I would
have to get up and leave. It was a pain I had never felt before that moment and one I have never felt since. As I sat there concentrating on this pain, tears began to stream down my cheeks, not from the pain, but from the realization that God was sending me a very clear answer to my prayer. And, He chose to do it through my own ears so there would be no mistake about my understanding what I was experiencing.
I knew then, our baby Benjamin heard every word we spoke or sang to him. Whether he heard with his earthly ears or not, I know he heard and felt every whisper of love with his beautiful spirit. The pain in my ear completely disappeared as quickly as it arrived, within a couple of minutes. Amazingly, what was on my mind that evening made its journey to my heart where it will always remain. I continue to thank God for His undeniable answer that evening and for sharing His angel, our little Benjamin with us.